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Study week is almost coming to an end. My exam starts on this coming monday - LSP 300. Yet, i still haven feel the stress of exam. Sigh. I am really stress because i can't feel the stress!! I know it's very lame. But it's true!! I've tried a lot of ways to force myself to expose to some exam-stress. Unfortunately, failed. @.@

While everyone is stressing around, i am wondering around everyday, went out everyday, like there is no exam. Haha... OMG!! Khoo Siew Ping, what ARE U thinking?!?! U wanna fail?!?!

Studying at home is definitely a good choice. Where i can close myself in my room, no lines. Haha! But... my bed is calling for me. Duh!

I've tried studying in the library. I can tell u... U can become crazy!! Woh! Nothing to lighten u up after hours of study. Really dont have the motivation to study afterthat.

I used to be a science student before i pick up Mass Comm here. What a totally new thing for me. I really do not know how to cope, what to study & memorize!! It's to wide, specific & common-sense-kind of thing. What & which to focus actually??! Unlike bio or chem, we know which name, which formula & what process to memorize. Now, everything is just too random.


Haiyo~~~~ I hope exam ends faster. I am so headache now.

German Week just ended.
I miss my darling lor~~~ Volkswagen EOS!!!!
Some one told me "Start to plan ur budget well, u can buy one in 3 years time!"
Wahaha!!~ How am i to dig out RM248 thousand in 3 years time?!?!
I need at least 3 decades lor, not 3 years time. T_T

The Volkswagen EOS *nice, kan?*

* Me in VW EOS. HAHA~ *

EOS~ When can i be with u again?!~~~

I really cannot stand this anymore,
I WANT TO CURSE SOMEBODY OUT LOUD!!!!
I WANT TO LET THE WHOLE WORLD KNOW SHE IS A B*TCH!!!!

Honestly, i've been struggling for so long due to her bossy attitude.
If she says RIGHT, we all are going to accept that! even though we know that is WRONG!
We are being so nice to her, yet she get angry just in a click of a second.
Scold us like we are a bunch of stupid worms without brains!
I am so kind to tolerate with her, exremely kind in fact.

But she is getting more & more ridiculous!!! WTH!!
I offer my help since she was so busy with so many things & the way she beg us to help her.
THEN~..... she say i need to pay for the mistakes!!! *the mistakes she made*
I was so so DAMN ANGRY!!! WTF!~
That thing really is not worth to redo & nothing really wrong with it.
PLUS!!! She went talking that is MY MISTAKE that gives her more problems.
SHIT HER!!! WAT THE F***!!!!

She is not being professional enough for her job!!!
How can she get this job ??? I am really wondering!!~
She is so damn GOOD in acting i can say that.
I really need to salute her for that~
If she can't manage to DO so much things, then pls don't force other ppl to help you.
She go scolding around if we did not help her. WTH!
There is a Chinese saying : If u do not have such big head, pls do not wear such BIG HAT!!!

I SWEAR this is the first & the last time i help her. DAMN IT!!!!

I feel so confused lately. Do not know what decision to make. Can anyone tell me which is the right decision??? *sigh*

First is life saving. From the last mid-term break, I was thinking to quit. It's getting tougher and tougher. Those who didn't take life saving would wonder why i wan to quit. It's becausethey do not even know or understand how tough life saving is. Yea, I know if i quit now, it's a bit wasted. I have been tried my best from the beginning till now. I am halfway to the end. Test is on October. But what i am worrying is I do not have time to do other things, study for example. It's true tat one of my senior told me that once you joined life saving or life guard, you seldom have time for other things. Now i really get what he mean. But if i quit now, i will feel so wrong because I do not wan to give up. This will show how easy for me to give up what i am doing and i do not wan this to happen on me!!

Second is Germany. Honestly I wanted to go there so much since it's partially sponsored. I just need to pay the air fare. Can you imagine how cheap it is!!! It's impossible to go Germany with only 4-6k for 2 weeks. This is once in a lifetime opportunity. I am really not joking, but what i am worrying is my parents. Do they allow me to go there?? I am going to tell them tonight when i go home. I can now imagine how negative the conversation is. That's why i am so moody these few days.

I need to make a wise decision for myself. I do not wan to feel regret later on.